This third (and hopefully final) miscarriage has been very different from the others. The other two were during the days that I didn't want many people knowing what was going on in our fertility world. This time we can tell that there are so many peace and comfort prayers going up for us and we THANK YOU from the bottom of our hearts! I have gotten so many 'praying for you', 'thinking of you', 'how are you?', 'I'm here for you' phone calls, texts and facebook messages that it has truly been very heart warming!
During many of my conversations we have talked about the fertilized eggs and all of the "science" that goes on behind the scenes. It was during some of these phone calls that I realized that God already knew all about our little ones. God reveals to us in His Word that not only does life begin at conception, but He knows who we are even before then (Jeremiah 1:5). King David said this about God's role in our conception: "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb . . . your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be" (Psalm 139:13, 16).
Every time I ended one of those conversations my mind was going 90mph and then it hit.....OH MY WORD!!!.....Zach and I have 26 babies in Heaven! Two miscarriages + 14 fertilized eggs from IVF#1 + 10 fertilized eggs from IVF#2 = 26 BABIES!!!! Who is taking care of them????
I know that at the beginning of this my grandparents in Heaven stepped right up and invited everyone of those sweet babies into their mansion but as the years have gone on and baby after baby comes in I'm sure they are past their limit! I can just see my grandma marching all 26 little darlings down the streets of gold and dividing them up between them, Zach's two granddads and my aunt Debbie. I'm sure grandma and Debbie have it all planned out which kid goes where and when it is time to switch. I'm also sure that they are begging God to leave a few on Earth for the rest of us to take care of and love!!! ;)
I'm still not sure what our next step will be but I'm putting my HOPE in the Lord! I HOPE He so sick and tired of hearing all of us and all the caregivers of 26 Ehlers babies in Heaven begging Him for a sweet healthy baby Ehlers that next time He will give in and make it happen! ;)
We are waiting for His perfect timing! Thanks again for all the prayers!
Monday, October 31, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
no words....
There are no words to describe the physical hurt in my heart and my whole body right now.
My hcg level is still rising but not enough for a healthy pregnancy.
Zach and I are both heart-broken but we know that God has a plan for us! Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. With this promise we know that His will be done and we are still giving Him all the glory!
I'm not sure what our next step will be but hopefully my next blog will be a little more upbeat!
We want to thank each and everyone for all the prayers! Please continue to pray for peace and comfort as my body gets rid of all these hormones and starts going back to "normal."
We want to send a HUGE THANK YOU to our prayer team for all the BOLD prayers and for the other mind blowing things that God has allowed them to do for us! I am in shock at how wonderful it is to be surrounded by true God fearing prayer warriors! IT'S AMAZING!
My hcg level is still rising but not enough for a healthy pregnancy.
Zach and I are both heart-broken but we know that God has a plan for us! Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. With this promise we know that His will be done and we are still giving Him all the glory!
I'm not sure what our next step will be but hopefully my next blog will be a little more upbeat!
We want to thank each and everyone for all the prayers! Please continue to pray for peace and comfort as my body gets rid of all these hormones and starts going back to "normal."
We want to send a HUGE THANK YOU to our prayer team for all the BOLD prayers and for the other mind blowing things that God has allowed them to do for us! I am in shock at how wonderful it is to be surrounded by true God fearing prayer warriors! IT'S AMAZING!
Saturday, October 8, 2011
thank you God!
WE ARE PRAISING GOD AND GIVING HIM ALL THE GLORY!
Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever ... 1 Chron 16:34.
.. stand every morning to thank and praise the LORD, and likewise at evening ... 1 Chron 23:30.
So we, Your people and sheep of Your pasture, will give You thanks forever; We will show forth Your praise to all generations ... Psalm 79:13.
The nurse called back with good news!!!! My hcg level (pregnancy hormone) went up the 66% the doctor was hoping for!!! Thursday it was 25 and today it's at 40. This number is still on the low side so they are watching me closely and carefully not to miss anything!!! I will go back Wednesday for more blood work to make sure my hcg level is still going up. Please pray that my hcg level is in the higher part of the 100's by then and that my estrogen level is where it needs to be to make this pregnancy stay healthy!!!!
I am still in shock and I know that this is only something God can do!!!! I know that all of our prayers, your prayers and our prayer teams prayers have made this happen! Matthew 18:19-20 "Again I say to you, if two of you agree on earth about anything they ask, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them."
We can not thank you enough for your prayers, it means SO much!!!
Please keep BOLDLY praying: peace for Zach and me, for hormone levels to keep going up, and for this little Ehlers to keep growing to be perfectly and wonderfully made! We are praying for a very happy ending this time!!!
Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever ... 1 Chron 16:34.
.. stand every morning to thank and praise the LORD, and likewise at evening ... 1 Chron 23:30.
So we, Your people and sheep of Your pasture, will give You thanks forever; We will show forth Your praise to all generations ... Psalm 79:13.
The nurse called back with good news!!!! My hcg level (pregnancy hormone) went up the 66% the doctor was hoping for!!! Thursday it was 25 and today it's at 40. This number is still on the low side so they are watching me closely and carefully not to miss anything!!! I will go back Wednesday for more blood work to make sure my hcg level is still going up. Please pray that my hcg level is in the higher part of the 100's by then and that my estrogen level is where it needs to be to make this pregnancy stay healthy!!!!
I am still in shock and I know that this is only something God can do!!!! I know that all of our prayers, your prayers and our prayer teams prayers have made this happen! Matthew 18:19-20 "Again I say to you, if two of you agree on earth about anything they ask, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them."
We can not thank you enough for your prayers, it means SO much!!!
Please keep BOLDLY praying: peace for Zach and me, for hormone levels to keep going up, and for this little Ehlers to keep growing to be perfectly and wonderfully made! We are praying for a very happy ending this time!!!
Thursday, October 6, 2011
pray for #1
Well I had my blog all written out to tell everyone that my test was negative due to the symptoms (or lack of) but God had other plans......
The nurse called about 10:40 to tell me that my pg is a very low positive (25)......WAIT, WHAT?!?!?!?!? YES, YOU READ THAT CORRECTLY!!!! I told her there was no way this could be correct because I'm spotting SO badly! She said the spotting could be because my estrogen level has gone from almost 400 to 91. She informed me that my progesterone was still very good (33) but I needed to add another estrogen patch so that hopefully we can get it back up!
There are 3 things that can happen:
1) my hcg level and estrogen can go up and we can continue with a healthy pregnancy!!!!!! they would like to see my hcg level rising quickly and be MUCH higher Saturday morning!
2) chemical pregnancy. this would mean that the sack formed but there is no baby.
3) ectopic pregnancy. an abnormal pregnancy that occurs outside the womb.
I AM BEGGING YOU TO PLEASE DROP TO YOUR KNEES AND PRAY FOR NUMBER 1!!!!!!!
Psalm 46:10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God..."
The nurse called about 10:40 to tell me that my pg is a very low positive (25)......WAIT, WHAT?!?!?!?!? YES, YOU READ THAT CORRECTLY!!!! I told her there was no way this could be correct because I'm spotting SO badly! She said the spotting could be because my estrogen level has gone from almost 400 to 91. She informed me that my progesterone was still very good (33) but I needed to add another estrogen patch so that hopefully we can get it back up!
There are 3 things that can happen:
1) my hcg level and estrogen can go up and we can continue with a healthy pregnancy!!!!!! they would like to see my hcg level rising quickly and be MUCH higher Saturday morning!
2) chemical pregnancy. this would mean that the sack formed but there is no baby.
3) ectopic pregnancy. an abnormal pregnancy that occurs outside the womb.
I AM BEGGING YOU TO PLEASE DROP TO YOUR KNEES AND PRAY FOR NUMBER 1!!!!!!!
Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
1 Chronicles 16:11 Seek the LORD and his strength; seek his presence continually!
Deuteronomy 31:8 It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.
Psalm 46:10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God..."
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